She doesn’t look at me. She looks at the river. The same river she drowned in, the same river where her husband’s boat once floated, the same river that still carries the reflection of a world that asked her to leave but never showed her the door.
Because if you do—if you really do—you see the space around her shape. A slight warp in the light. A cold that doesn’t come from the river breeze. The sound of a woman sobbing, not in grief, but in hunger . Not hunger for rice. Hunger for an apology that never came.
Outside, a long-tail boat grumbles past on the canal. A child runs laughing through the courtyard. The novice monk finishes sweeping and bows toward the main Buddha image. No one screams. No one points. pee mak temple
Wat Mahabut, Phra Khanong, Bangkok. Present day. The canal is murky green. Incense smoke curls like ghosts trying to remember a shape.
This is where the abbot stopped her. Not with exorcism. With love . He shaved her skull, gave her a white robe, and told her: You are no longer his wife. You are no longer a ghost. You are just suffering. And suffering has a place here. She doesn’t look at me
The temple didn’t banish her. It housed her.
The Wound of the Wat
I came to pray for peace. Instead, I find myself praying to her.