...ing -2003- (HIGH-QUALITY • SOLUTION)

That fall, school started. We went back to our desks, our lockers, our lives. And no one mentioned the summer. Not the static. Not the glass air. Not the drowning.

I remember the exact moment the drowning began. Not in water—in sound. My sister had left a CD on repeat in her boombox: a burned mix with "Hey Ya!" scratched over a Dashboard Confessional acoustic track. I was lying on the shag carpet, staring at a water stain on the ceiling that looked exactly like South America. And then the chorus skipped. Not a broken skip—a choosing skip. The same three words, over and over, for what felt like hours: “I’m not okay. I’m not okay. I’m not okay.” ...ing -2003-

In late July, we went to the reservoir. Six of us, crammed into a Ford Taurus with a busted AC. The water was the color of weak tea, but we didn't care. We dove in anyway. And for ten minutes, I felt nothing but the cold. The blessed, mindless cold. Then I opened my eyes underwater. That fall, school started

I swam up. Broke the surface. Gasped.