Clara laughed, and the laugh cracked into something raw. She wasn’t strong. She was a girl in a grown-up’s body, terrified of the dark, of being alone, of the silence where a partner’s breathing used to be.
The girl wanted wonder. The woman wanted a safe place to land. Both were valid. Both were her . girl v woman
The war was quiet, fought in the bathroom mirror each morning. The woman’s face stared back: fine lines at the corners of her eyes, a jaw set with practiced calm. But the girl lurked behind the reflection, bottom lip trembling, asking, Who said you get to be in charge? Clara laughed, and the laugh cracked into something raw
Clara drove home. She changed out of the pencil skirt into worn flannel pajamas. She made boxed macaroni and cheese—the neon orange kind the girl loved—and ate it sitting on the floor of her living room, the woman’s beige sofa behind her. Then she opened her laptop and, for the first time in months, wrote a poem. It was clumsy. It was honest. It was neither grown-up nor childish. The girl wanted wonder